Oh, Paul, I’m sorry to hear that. It sounds like a real struggle for you. Don’t become too much of a hermit to avoid her, though! That doesn’t sound very healthy either.

Perhaps you could find some other interests to engage in while you heal? Music might be your passion, but maybe it’s time to explore some other things that you’re less passionate about. Make new friends, explore new things, and it might take your mind off of her so you can truly begin to heal.

I hope you’re able to find some peace with what happened soon.